Here’s wishing us the most marvelous and happiest 3rd month anniversary! There’s going to be many more to come!

I love you so much dear.:)

Melvyn

Winning the elections seemed like an achievement in itself to me.

What i expected was something so different from what i learnt, this past year.

Being president for a year, allowed me to see the ugly side of us humans up so close. judgemental, ungrateful, inadequate, disgusting, rude, negative, myopic, blind, unforgiving, unkind, dishonest, unreliable, unsupportive, hypocritical and much more.

Something we all are, but do not see in ourselves.

As leaders, we all start out hopeful, we all want the best for those we lead. But when the sheep do not allow the shepherd to lead, there is only so much the shepherd can do. Drag the sheep? How many? Will they be willing ? Happy? there is so much to consider, so much that cant be done.

I couldnt relate to many i was leading, why i ask myself. Is it really unchangable? If we go by the worlds way of leading there is no way we can relate,& we wouldnt be able to relate to them.

There was some time that i questioned my leadership, i questioned myself. & finally i realised why, i had this opportunity to be leader. i recalled a part of the book the shack, and a portion said that authority and position leading was what humans are now reduced to, and how it is the worst way to lead. I didnt understand, if no one is in charge, how will things get done?

Finally i understood. In such a relationship, no one will be happy, there will be conflict, strife, undiscontent, unhappiness. It was not meant to be that way.

I also had the chance to reflect on myself, seeing all the ugly of us humans in the past year allowed me the opportunity as if watching it as a show. It gave me time to look at the happenings and look at myself.

It makes me want to change. Not to ‘be better than them’ not the want to not reduce myself to the same level as those, but for simply the basic , my conscience. Something i realised, we have all lost as humans. Although i would really want to say to please God. But i’m so distant from him now. i hope to find Him, along this road.

I realise the reason for my election now. A year ago i never saw it. I saw all the wrong reasons. It was to learn what you cant if they dont get the experience,

lead by love. not position. not power. not authority. not superiority.

although i did not get to in dance club. I’m glad i got the chance to learn this life lesson. Even when i was far from Him. He was moulding me all the time.

I do not regret choosing to run for president, i’m glad God used my pride to show me so much, He showed me my ugly through others, and taught me such a precious lesson that i finally can see.

Thank you, Jesus.

I feel terrible many a times, i feel like such a big hypocrite. Why do we always need Sundays and Church time for us to remember what is the true importance of life. And why is it we put ourselves so important that we cant put God first. We’re too comfortable in this world. It be hard to share the gospel to people, when my life’s testimony is a joke of my words. Time to clean up together with mel

I don’t know how Jesus did it man. A guy needs to feel loved too every now and then. But that cannot happen all the time. And I’m just in awe of His strong will and determination. Praise the Lord!

P.S. I love you.

Happy Second Month Anniversary!

It is the way of our society. Why are we wasting our time studying? What use is all these grades and qualifications when we are judged? Do they matter before Him? Of course not. But it matters to us now. Ask the person begging on the street for money. Tell him. Ask and you shall be given. Seek and you shall find. He’ll spit in your face because he has been asking and begging for money since god knows when. This is what we’re reduced to.

Look at the school dropout. Who has been reduced to working odd jobs due to his lack of qualifications. Ask him.Given the chance again, would you study hard? Or would you follow the same path and drop out since studying really doesn’t matter anyway? He’ll say he would rather study hard because in this world, if he does not do so, he’ll die of being ousted out by society. These are examples of non-believers. Or maybe of people with little faith in the Lord. But in the society we live in, this is so common.

All these competitions. The rat race. The aim to reach the top. They all don’t matter in the end. So should we give up our education now and go be missionaries in Haiti? What can we do? We don’t even have a hint of medical knowledge. We don’t even know the language of the people. We don’t even know the terrain of the land. All we can do, is use our bare hands. And who knows, we might become more of a hassle than help.

Teachers tell us to study. Parents tell us to study. To get good grades. So that we can get into a good university. So that we can get a good job. So that we can earn lots of money. So that we’ll have a good life. So that we won’t suffer in life. Bull. Since we’re already students and we know we can’t escape from this fact without facing major obstacles, take this time to learn. Learn not for the sake of reaching the top and to beat others, but for the sake of helping others. God knows that the emphasis society places on learning is wrong. What does it matter anyway? You know that too.

There is a time for everything. But since, we’re stuck here anyway, until the day of judgement, why not use it right?

P.S. But then again, if learning to help others becomes a competition too, then we all deserve to go to hell.

{ A } , a letter. The first letter of the alphabet. Its just a letter. Yet its something almost the entire human race slog their guts out just to see on the top of their scripts. Sometimes i wonder why we are all doing this. But then the answer comes, its simply because this is what we have become. A grading system. Instead of a relationship based loving society, we’ve turn into a system where we filter people out, leaving only the best. Who arent even the best anyway. There is much cost of that litlle letter. perhaps while studying for a test we miss a call from someone who needs a shoulder to cry on. Because we strive to reach the top of society, or remain somewhere up there, we neglect and forget the left behind. Cause we need the most minimal burden there is, so to say. These Little things, that slowly, eats us up  unknowingly. and all these business ,its the norm now. Working your ass off to get a’s is commended by all. Its a ‘smart move’  it means you will ‘get somewhere’ . We cant go against it cause its the norm, its what is ‘right’. Sometimes i wonder if it really is. Should we die today, what shall we say to the One, when we are before him. Does He bother that much if we get those A’s, nope. So long as we prioiritise and do our best in it. Which brings us to wrong priorities. Many a teachers tell you the priority is your studies, you are a student. A student is not all we are, is it? How wrong this world is.

I’m getting too comfortable here, we shouldnt get so comfy in this world. Because its just a temporary place . A few years, out of eternity.

Speaking of which, A levels are coming soon.

I love you!:)